SoC #28
October 2nd, 2009
- Its cold and late and dark and many things seem out of sorts
- not simply the physical but others
- in my newly reorganized bedroom I replugged in my DVD recorder
- and haven’t updated the clock so the blinking 12:00 beckons
- by the second and the rational side of me knows that its just another
- chronological display and I just haven’t found my way to do it and the spare 5 minutes to punch in the correct time
- but its like a symbol for how things are lately
- it could just take a few minutes but its not really urgent
- so let it blink…
- its little visual addition to the otherwise dark room dimly lit by the glow of a small netbook is just enough to be noticed on my periphery
- I wrongly over react and try to reign in my awareness
- to pull in my antenna so as to not notice the incessant calling of noon or midnight but
- such little things can teach us to narrow our view like when our brains don’t get enough oxygen
- and the tunnel starts to cave in on us
- except this is our attention to the here and now
- and contributes greatly to the enjoyment of life
- or lack thereof
- such little acts of attention towards ourselves and others
- tip our emotions between those that add to our energy
- and those that tear it down
- I wish to have the words and deeds that could enlighten my comrades in their harsh times
- my thoughts that go in and out with each of my slow even breaths
- perhaps they can fill in the blank thats in my little packet of intention with the words or thoughts
- or feelings that would envelop them like a warm blanket
- a spiritual hug if you will
- that says it will be OK
- and its just a blinking light.
