SoC # 24
- rearranged my laptop stand and monitor in my bedroom and its not quite right yet
- which feels much like everything lately
- not inertia but a step sideways perhaps to a new perspective
- but not quite comfortable or feeling better yet
- was a sports milestones weekend as
- Jeter eclipsed the Yankee hit record
- Serena yelled her way out of the semifinals
- last second scoring in the Broncos included a tip and lucky TD catch
- Federer looked like he was master in command only
- to be surpassed himself the next day
- which leaves me wondering how to feel about it as
- I admired his fitness and strategy and mental fortitude
- only to read it online that he lost after I gave up watching the second set thinking
- that it was all but over and tired of
- watching the Federer vise close in on his opponents
- now I wish I recorded the match
- but that is how chance is sometimes… like
- the friend that almost ran into me with his car turning on 86th street
- as I stared up at my fantasy home
- contemplating the staggering sums of money to fulfill that dream
- and wondering why I stopped running regularly this summer suddenly
- but have to concede to the idea of the fun run being the start of my fall running season
- rather than the goal at the end
- the news lately accentuates a sense of things not being quite right
- with the Yale student’s latest creating doubt about many things
- yet this is the precise moment to renew faiths and beliefs
- but the mind wanders as I try to exercise some mind control
- my own mindfulness that is, not over someone else while
- I fold clothes but the touch of cotton
- and the smell of detergent and sights of colors isn’t
- enough to keep me here and now without struggle
- still the clothes are folded sooner than expected and further down
- my stream I think about the Broke American whom I
- know only as an avatar in a forum
- but his blog about consumerism and addictions and weight loss
- clues me into how much he is trying to do and all at once
- the setting sun looked marvelous from my neighbors roof deck
- as we consumed some moderately priced beer from Whole Foods
- and we spoke of many varied things and it struck me that I felt so strongly
- that our near future, that is the next few years will test all of us
- yet things will come out OK as I remain
- on the optimistic side of realism
- but many events do trouble me.
