Blended Living

Solipsistic Girl,

Don’t you tell your dreams to me?

I will set you free.

• Its late and the quiet surrounds me
• I put on the funny Koss earbuds that block out external sounds and before I turn on the MP3 player its even quieter…
• such aural isolation can frighten yet it feels so good right now
• were my ears ringing all this time and I didn’t hear it over the NYC din?
• such thoughts and quests can wait
• I feel relief that the day is put to rest or will be soon
• the days filled with productive work, hard running, and strengthened relationships stretch my life
• like a rubber band one way
• to offer such restful sleep when my lively day yields to night and subconsciousness
• as the rubber snaps to the other side
• sure there are concerns and worries and the thoughts that pile on
• yet my resilience is so strong today that I know they will be tackled tomorrow
• if life is a football game, the ball was advanced today
• and then there is time to rest and think of the cheerleaders dancing their enticement
• and let the strategy come to me in my sleep for the next play
• but life isn’t a football game exactly
• we don’t have sponsors to support us
• nor do we have to cater to their brands
• we are in a way our own best cheerleader and sponsors
• its that quiet part of the cycle
• when we can hear everything that whispers inside
• the voices that yearn for attention
• the shouts of needs and screams of hurts upon our bodies and minds and souls
• the enticements leaked into our psyche by carefully NLP’ed ads
• you know the ones that resemble late night infomercials except that they run inside our skulls
• and they key in on our personalized fears and desires
• tricky aren’t they?
• these voices need to be listened to and put to rest, lest they come back again louder in the next refrain
• like a line at a new restaurant where you see a line and think that its important and decide you must eat there
• except you are standing in the line in front of and behind yourself
• be careful to notice this next time
• lest you fear or fool or drool yourself into thinking something is more important than it really is
• and now for some visions of gumdrops and lollipops and cheerleaders …